Things that are Deceptively Hard
-Paperwork
-Moving without pause for 5k
-Selling anything in a retail environment
-Consistently practicing any new skill - here I'm looking at my lightly dusty mandolin
-The first day of a new endeavor
The course of true love (and a career you truly love) never does run smooth. Like every semester of school, my financial aid has been incredibly difficult and time-consuming to resolve. I had to prove I'm unemployed. I was briefly coded as not being in my actual surg-tech program. No one knew the solution. It's always a unique experience to stand before a bureaucracy and have no one know quite what is happening or how to fix it, but rather toss you gently from one department to another like a pesky little chick.
Things resolve eventually with an extra $1000 for me, which I won't sneer at by any means. Now I just have to find out what is unacceptable about my immunization records. The paperwork is from the county health department, so I can't imagine what is deficient about it.
It's so hard to want something for years, want it enough to cry and dream and obsess over it, fail, fail again, settle on the backup backup plan, and all the while still wanting so hard. Working so hard towards success and consistently stubbing your toes along the way. I am terribly afraid and excited and hopeful, which makes me feel like antiqued, crackling porcelain.
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